I realize my life and the maintenance of my psyche essentially boils down to a couple of things... making the most of now in a life where I'm constantly planning my next step. I think these two things don't have to be mutually exclusive, but I can sure make it seem that way. I think you really only are yourself when you're focused on the present. All good happens in that space of time when you forget what your surroundings are, the circumstances you're in, and just let things play out. There was some lyric I heard -- I think it was John Lennon -- that said life is what goes on when you're waiting for something else. Worrying about the future is never necessary - we just say it is because it seems to make everything better in the long run, when really we're just diluting the experience of now. I wish I could take that plunge. Maybe I will. I can sure wax romantic about it, though.
On a tech note, I ordered a veggie burrito at the nearby Chipotle today. While ordering, I couldn't hear what the burrito woman had asked (it was "beans AND stir-fry?" or something like that), and just replied with my order of black beans. Later on inquiring where my stir-fry was, she had told me she had asked me and I said nothing about them, so we assumed I didn't want any. I really don't mind... I find myself to be a pretty easy-going person... but it made me think there had to be a better way to order a burrito than having to be asked every time you order which beans, which toppings, cheese? sour cream? salsa... and list the types of salsa... if someone comes in there often with their card, why isn't there some sort of RFID tag which remembers your information in the first place? You know they're already collecting it, even if it's not personally identifiable. Burrito woman was obviously upset at having to repeat herself, so I think it would be best if we both didn't have to repeat ourselves. This non-interaction would probably be useful more at a lunchtime place like this than somewhere where human interaction is part of the dining experience, not a burden. Or maybe a technological solution isn't best. Maybe it's something that needs to be just streamlined in way so people don't have to answer so many questions. There is a sub shop called Za's that does an index card order system, but that also seems to bother me that I have to fill those out to order as well. Maybe I'm thinking about this too much.